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one day at a time

Jan 2009, what a month.
The begining of a brand new year,
the ending of an almost 'till death do us part' relationship.
Here I am, grown up a little bit more.
I feel better, but lost.
Where do I go from here?
I thought I would just pack up and leave like I always do.
Somehow it's different this time.
I didn't feel the urge to run away, no hunger for a change.
Something is telling me to stay.

I'm a dreamer, they say.
I think I like it this way.
So here I am,
waiting to be found.


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# by celizi0202 | 2009-01-23 19:47 | empty space
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Baby, baby
When we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover
And my best friend
All wrapped into one
With a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden
When you left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shot
That spun me around
And now my heart left
I feel so empty and hollow

And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize the ways you hit me, Do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame

And now I feel like, oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke all
These cigarettes no more
I guess this is what I get
For wishful thinking
Should've never let you into my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using like I bleed
It's like I checked into rehab
Baby you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
Baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Damn,
Ain't it crazy
When you're love swept?
You'll do anything
For the one you love
'Cause anytime
That you needed me
I'd be there
It's like
You were my favorite drug
The only problem is
That you was using me
In a different way
Than I was using you
But now that I know
That it's not meant to be
You gotta go
I gotta win myself over you

Rihanna
# by celizi0202 | 2008-11-26 18:31 | moonless night

right now i feel like a bird
caged without a key
everyone comes to stare at me
with so much joy and revelry
they don't know how i feel inside
through my smile i cry
they don't know what they do to me
keeping me from flying
that's why i say that i know why the caged bird sings
only joy comes from song
she's so rare and beautiful to others
why not just set her free
so she can fly, fly, fly
spreading her wings and her song
let her fly, fly, fly
for the whole world to see
Mmmmm Mmmmm
she's like a caged bird
fly, fly
Ooh, just let her fly, just let her fly, just let her fly
spread your wings, spread beauty

--Alicia Keys

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# by celizi0202 | 2008-07-29 19:45 | moonless night
....on my mind_d0029172_20104885.jpg


I'm an Aquarian, a dreamer.
I love figure ice skating, dancing, singing, astrology and anything that's pretty. (I'm not shallow. :D)
But I'm a pharmacist, an occupation so far away from what I love to do, what makes me happy, what makes me feel really alive, what makes me connect to my soul.
oh well, I guess that's life. Have to get a job that can bring home the $$$$$. I consider myself as a servant of the society. yes...a servant.

But I'll keep dreaming, hoping that one day I can call myself a dancer.
# by celizi0202 | 2008-05-10 20:15 | blablabla
Sometimes I feel..... like I don't belong anywhere.
And it's gonna take.... so long for me to get to somewhere.........

Sometimes I feel so heavy hearted.., but I can't explain cuz I'm so guarded.
But that's a lonely road to travel, and a heavy load to... bear.

And it's a long, long way to heaven but I gotta get there.....
Can you send an angel.....?
Can you send me an angel...... to guide me.

--Alicia Keys
# by celizi0202 | 2008-05-07 20:16 | moonless night

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